Sometimes all this is just hard to believe.
I mean, I'm living in Paris now. And that's the Eiffel Tower over there.
When I was in college, all I thought about was coming to this city.
I was gonna live in an attic
appartment and work in Skakespeare & Co. while I wrote my novel.
I had fantasy about falling in love with a tragically detached French girl that I would finally break through to when I kiss her in front of the tourists up there, at the top of the Eiffel Tower.
I got through some very tough time thinking about this city.
But right now I'm actually here with the woman I love.
And the Eiffel Tower is right there.
However,?I somehow keep having the feeling that I cannot really enjoy it because at any moment something terrible could happen.
Sometimes life just doesn't seem real. Sometimes it just feels like you're living in a dream.
But there's one thing I'm sure of. And it's that I've made a promise and I'm gonna keep it.
I've promised my love that we're gonna build a future together and I'm gonna kiss her at the top of the Eiffel Tower, in front of all those tourists.
This promise makes my days feel real.
Maybe life itself doesn't have to be totally real. What really matters is our feeling towards those who we care about.
I can no longer thinkg about a future without her. A future without her is no future at all.
Yes, love is my reality.
Thank you, my love, for coming into my life.